Sweet Surrender ...

Getting better ... my eye anyway ... my mood and attitude could still use a bit of adjusting.  Still really short-tempered.  Some residual pain, I guess?  I can see how one could easily become addicted to those pain meds.  They make everything numb: the pain, all worries and cares.  Easy to see how one might choose to pop a pill instead of facing this not always fun reality ... But not to worry, I'm all done with the pain pills and I still have half a bottle left.  Good for me?  I should probably flush the remainder down the toilet, right?  Eliminate future temptations?  No, I've never been a big fan of drugs of any sort.  I even hold out on antibiotics until I am absolutely certain that my body can't fight something on its own first.  No worries:  It's all good : )

Here's a little poem I crafted while under the influence of heavy narcotics, so to speak ... Those drugs seemed to open whole new worlds for me: Pretty far out?!? ... Love this artist, Diana Collier ART, by the way.  Be sure and check out her page: such talent!

Fantasy, By Diana Collier ART

“Sweet Surrender”

Drug induced daze.

Secrets I keep even

From myself ablaze.

In sweet surrender

To inhibitions walls

Crashing down,

I stand innocent,

Naked, in amazed

Confusion …  Void

Of all imposed

Coping delusions.

In this moment,

I am at long last  lost

& simultaneously found.

@Isa Black Smith, May 2012.

Hope to be back to writing on the novel, this Monday or Tuesday, if all goes well.  Trying to bring a new PC on-line and having a few issues.  Hopefully, with two good eyes I will be able to resolve them.

Hope you and yours are having a fabulous Holiday weekend!  May God Bless all who have served our countries so valliantly in our armed forces and their families left behind here in this life.  May we never forget their memories or the sacrifices they have made in order to preserve the hard won freedoms that we enjoy today.  ♥


Peace & Much LOVE,
~M



Song:  "Lucky Man", By The Verve  (youtube.com)



P.S. 5/29/12 Computer is now up and all transferred software is running once again.  I even installed my new digital graphics tablet:  very cool!  This tablet should make photo editing and ART renders a whole lot easier than using a mouse right-handed (when I am supposedly left-handed).  I'm loving this new PC: now to get back to writing? ; )  Think I'll doodle a bit first ... Here's a Harbor seal I saw splashing and playing around in the Puget Sound the other day.

This seal has the life, eh? ...

One-eyed ME?

Not much writing these past few days :(  Injured my eye over the weekend.  Self-inflicted wound ... trying to improve my vision, perhaps?  Opened my eyes to a new way of seeing through pain pills, I guess.  Kind of knocks down all your protective barriers in a manner of speaking.  Truth is a booger sometimes ... But the drugs wear off and reality sets back in.  Life in the moment, right?  And when you look back, only the important ones shine through ... We tend to edit out the painful and mundane, don't we?

Life in this moment ... this here, this now.  No looking back ... Only forward.  After all, I believe that there is a ruling balance corrects over time.

I hadn't realized how much we do with our eyes on a given daily basis.  A bit frustrating to be one-eyed for a few days here.  Sensitivity to light and lots of pain ... Trying to give up the pain pills today.  They make me incredibly sleepy and loopy, never really cared much for drugs of any kind.  I have slept a lot these last few days though, so I guess that's something.  Lots of writing ideas buzzing around in my head.  Wish I had taken Ken up on his offer to buy me "Dragon" ; )  Still haven't played with my birthday presents either --among them a new high tech digital graphics tablet for photo editing and ART renders.  So this dang eye had best heal quickly!  Doctors say I should be good as new in 5-7 days, it's been 4 days now. I'm a terrible patient, I know.  I'll find something to do with myself --besides sleep, but I suppose a closed eye maybe heals quicker?-- between now and the magic number of 7 days and it better not take longer than that!

Since I can't see, I've no recent photo edits.  I could post a photo of me during one of my 3 a.m. --up all night-- photo editing sessions?  At least this photo has me without an injured eye?  Guess, I'll post and take it down in a day or two when these drugs wear off ; )  ... Pain is a funny thing, for me when I don't take the pain pills I can't tune out this eye pain, like I can with other pain.  The pain is so intense and IN MY HEAD, it just translates into intense irritation, bordering on aggravation.  Talk about short tempered?!? I have to wonder if maybe the drugs are the lesser of the evils in this instance?

3 a.m. photo editing ...

A tired, but not yet sleepy me?

Well, wish me a speedy recovery so that I can get back to writing, right?!  My ears are still working though.  I found a cool song by Lifehouse, titled "Broken" ... I would title it "Barely Breathing", but they are the artists.  Apparently, this group did a recent remake of this song ... newer more hip, instrumentally intensified version.  I prefer the original version, myself.  I didn't like the music video for this as it was not at all how I had envisioned or interpreted the song, but decide for yourself.   Oh well,  this song is about "pain" and "healing" and "broken" (my eye) so it fits with my current state of being.  Enjoy!

Song:  "Broken", Lifehouse



Healing vibes to all who pass this way!


Peace & Love,
~M




P.S. Have a friend who seems to be venturing into stand-up comedy these days.  Finding humor in this life of ours ... having a sense of humor ... is a form of higher evolvement on some level, I think.  Well, perhaps contemplating life from a one-eyed perspective will give him some funny material to work with?  Am I a rock star with my dark glasses 24/7 or would I go over better as a pirate with an eye-patch?  I've always had a thing for pirates ; )  Best to you, Paul.   XOXO